of tellann and omtose phellack

A (belated) merry and happy Chinese New Year to all you Chinese out there. there's quite a few of us around the world, isn't it?

It was good to finally go back and celebrate CNY with family after more than half a decade apart, if only remind oneself some activities are best done most infrequently. It's funny that back twice back to back in quick succession brought some homesickness that I hadn't known I had. Though, critics would argue that it's my increasing "Britishness" (the assumption that I am turning less Chinese and more Brit) of innate love of warmth, sun and sea and despise of the bitter winter speaking.

E is a big girl now, and I am sad having missed watching her grow up so quickly. Hopefully, we'll settle some stuff and bring her over soon.

It's really cold here at the moment, gosh! Feels like some Hood forsaken Jaghut called on omtose phellack over the entire Europe.

ah, yes, and I'm rather bored at the moment.

once a malaysian, always a malaysian?

this popped out of nowhere in a random conversation, that i actually felt annoyed that others are rather misinformed about the country and explicitly disdain the country for no apparent reason. i did a bit of soul searching why i had felt the need to defend my home country, which i so often have cause to complain about and it all comes down to this:

1. the government is shit. the politics is shit.

2. some people are pathetic, still holding on to that ketuanan shit which makes them clearly inferior. i have a superiority complex(fact), but that is because these scum keep telling me they deserve all those handicap in life. For what reason; racial discrimination, or racial inferiority? i rather believe that i am racially superior than being racially discriminated.

otherwise, malaysia is a lovely country. great food, lovely beaches, nice mountains, diverse and rich in culture, friendly people, and still a growing and strong economy.

so, fix politics?

a converse world.

my new kit :)

i'm being rather fashionable these days, ha ha! (some might say i'm too old for these)

the frustrations of legitity

I'm a convert, or rather I didn't have the means before. I had for a while now begun supporting legal music downloads and bought most of my music. I've even started converting my downloads to legit formats. 

The only problem is, for many Asian songs - it's impossible to get a legal version! Some artist don't appear at all, and even those that do have only a few albums or not all songs are available. This make it extremely frustrating...

Why would they recklessly pursue lawsuits and not focus on making legal copies accessible? For example, up to date - no Raymond Lam available on all the major mp3 vendors; neither can I get "Ni He Wo" by Leehom.

I cannot fathom the logic that they would want to win any sort of piracy battle by making legal copies so inaccessible.

sigh.

the final legs of 2011

spending my time erasing myself, divisible by my work-personal-academic self, and trying to finish my assignments so i can get pissed.

a marvellous execution for the final stanza of 2011?

write away in rambles

there is a need to write, like an alchemist transmute writing into habit, and maybe flashes of brilliance would spark from its chemistry. matter, is it not but an attraction of atoms and confounding metaphysics?

i've somehow got this idea in my head it is better to die young and lived life like a bright flame rather than fizzle out like a candle; and it has been stuck in my head for a while now. doesn't necessary mean that i am planning on suicide or that i am prone of doing risky adventures, quite on the contrary i don't seem to take enough gamble - at least for a chinese!

but recently, got me wondering that is rather selfish of me. robert jordan once penned, death is lighter than a feather, duty heavier than a mountain. by death i am giving in to cowardice and all the responsibilities of living; leave behind the people that i care, and care for me (few that it is) to mourn and scar their existence with my absence, even if my presence is more annoyance than not.

life, seems more likely a series of scars and marathon, to me to outlive all who i care, to spare them an existence without me. but am i not selfish, in masochism then?

hyvää joulua

H₀ H₀ H₀ (yes, null hypothesis ... idea from PhD Comics)

So, Merry Christmas dear readers; albeit a day late but better late than never?! Managed to burrow oneself at home the entire day today, which is not much of a feat given there's neither functioning transports nor open shops. 

I've been picking up on Murakami again and rereading 'Kafka on the Shore'. If I should say, it is one of the more pleasurable Sundays I've had in a while, being left to peace to read, slack and generally be lazy the entire day. Still managed to cook (necessity of it aside) two good meals, though I wish I could've shared this tranquil little world with someone.

But anyway, well wishes and I'll leave you with this cool art I found on DeviantArt.

christmas is coming by ~Julian-Grei on deviantART

So, how was YOUR Christmas?